I’m gonna cycle in the scorching sun now. All set for a good sweat!

I literally did not sleep the whole night because of Tumblr and because of certain deprivations and I got a good wake up call, in both senses of the phrase, from my boyfriend at 7am when he was actually arriving at work while there I am…wasting precious sleep and possibly ruining any chance of a morning alive. 

Luckily, I had offered to drop my brother to work today so I had a purpose to be awake so early. I got up, brushed my teeth, changed, set the breakfast table and broke out a sweat cycling for 15 minutes while eating a juicy red apple.

When I got back I got ready to drop him off to work though he drived there anyway. I was really worried when I felt my eyelids began being tugged down by little men (ha) but driving back I was alert and singing happily away to Hotel California but with the lovely blaring sun unfortunately blinding me from the view of the road. Thank goodness for Business FM, the only radio with proper music, so to speak. None of that mainstream pop. On my way home I dropped off a couple of things at the dry cleaner, went to the doc finally after having a cough for three weeks. I bumped into an uncle along the way. When I was going to leave I got a text from mother asking if I could get bread from La Bodega (where I am sure a schoolmate two, three years below me was with family). 

At home I felt tempted to just lie down and sleep but I wanted to finish whatever chores I had to help with so I swept the house, hand washed some clothes and dried them, what else? I did a lot today. Aside from the chores, I had the annoying task of scheduling times I’ll take my four different drops for my infected eyelid because mum was helping and not helping by helping because of her unintentionally raised voice and stuff I just got flustered but when it was simplified it was clear her advice was good. I had to do this for complicated, long explanatory reasons I can’t be arsed to write though, as you can see, I seem to enjoy blabbering about unnecessary details. Definitely mum’s genes! 

Finally after lunch I plonked myself on the sofa and thought I’d read a bit but I can’t remember, I must’ve gone on Face then I just completely knocked out. As my mum surprisingly described, I look STONED (her reason for not making me zabaione which I said ‘yes’ to half-asleep..but I got it after dinner. It was SO GOOD). Anyway, my last productive thing of the day was washing all the dishes, putting away the dinner leftovers and closing up the kitchen windows (which is tough andit’s strenuous on the back so I know how my mum feels now). 

Finally, I am here. Feeling good about my day. Now, I better sleep soon so this isn’t a one-off. 

Thanks Danni.

Goodnight. Lights off.

My significant others. My bestest friends - Sara and Danni (my love). Having them in my life reminds me of how blessed I am. I love them so much :) I honestly wouldn’t be much of who I am today and tomorrow without them. 

Cherish every moment!

P.s.: My hair’s cut real short now but I wanted to have photos that summed us all up and I haven’t got many recent photos so yeah :)

My brain is meddled. So much goes through my mind in a mere second, it makes me think about thinking. So then you can imagine how many flashes of words, pictures and things I’ve read or heard come in five seconds alone when I cross on this topic amongst others that faze me. 

I believe and say to myself often “Life is beautiful” but I immediately find myself zooming out of my own world to seeing other places and people less fortunate. I could go as near as some people I know myself to as far as Africa. Or North Korea, for example. What do they even know about what’s going on outside their own country? The media and information is limited to an extreme, if I’m not mistaken.

What do we know that is the whole truth?

We, people who have access to the internet and have television think we KNOW everything that’s going on because of what we see and hear. We are somewhat slaves to the media. Truth is that the media have this control to limit what they (or rather those of highest authority) may not want the public to know, the way information is presented to us can swing us in the direction it implies, unforcefully and leaving us still feeling that what we think is our opinion, our judgement, our conclusion. 

Do we ultimately have free will?

Not so long ago, a friend in college began introducing myself and a close friend to scenarios almost automatically deemed impossible or unnatural. It seemed to me to be one massive conspiracy theory that, like a ship, had fished a net around the conspiracy theories we are aware of and had brought it all on-board. It was an eye-opener. It made me want to know more. I realised that a lot of people were aware of some particular theories and their implications and if they were to be true, the devastation that could befall upon us. However, most of us naturally continue with our day-to-day routines and let the information (can’t say it’s knowledge…and yes! There is a difference) slide to the back our minds. It’s hard not to. 

I don’t want to come off paranoid here because that isn’t the case. Should I be? I choose to be wary. Only once in a while does this subject matter flood my mind. 

If there are things we can change, it’s those things within our control; attitude, critical and evaluative thinking, perception, to name a few. To avoid believing everything reported on the news, certain aspects of documentaries, magazine articles and the like. 

When I zoom in and I’m looking behind my eyes once again, I sum up a lot in my head, not necessarily with closure. Moving my focus from the bigger picture (the world’s triumphs and turmoils) to the smaller picture (individuals’ lives). I consider the many and important aspects such as relationships, career, spirituality, health etc. And it comes down to one thing eventually.

Balance.

We need to have a balance so as to not find ourselves overwhelmed with new information or with changing opinions drastically when we read, watch or hear something. An open mind does wonders. Ponder from a neutral aspect. 

Like this guy :P

So I slept at 3am because I was trying to figure out stuff on Tumblr, heard two out of three alarms and stopped the two, woke up at 11.40am thus missing church (and feeling bad).

We had a lunch with a few relatives at mine but I thought it was a dinner and all this stuff I did or didn’t do made my mum frustrated and, though I understood where she was coming from, she was overreacting. Lunch was great; spare ribs pasta, salad and lasagna.

Since then I’ve been reading the third installment of Stieg Larsson’s “The Girl Who…” trilogy. It’s full of twists and turns, I like it a lot. Yes, that means you should go read them. I helped clear dishes, I initiated the continuation of my spring cleaning that began a month ago and should obviously have only taken a week maximum. But I messed up there because I dumped lots of clothes and random stuff on my bed along the way and my mum came in and for ten seconds she was on fire because I put my make up kit (which has gone on the floor of my room, car, train, walkway, road and makeup class) on my newly washed, dried, ironed and made bed. I was definitely at fault. I watched the Australian Open in between supporting Murray but Djokovic was exceptional. 

And so now…I’m gonna get things sorted. 

Haha. It’s kinda sad cos right now I’m only following one friend, Sara aka voicesofsanity. Yeah. 

Oh and I hope Earth is okay because he seems to be really really emotional today, what with the non-stop crying. The clouds can’t even contain his tears. 

And this is my first post on Tumblr. I have longed for this day since the beginning of time. I thought, think too much instead of letting things flow more than I used to so I hope this place becomes my new home as a creative outlet. A place where I also am honest to myself. Truth is that most of us aren’t and we don’t acknowledge it because we don’t want to take anything longer than a glance at ourselves in the mirror or in our words, our thoughts, our actions… 

Truth is, I wanna be better. 

I want to go on and on but I think I’ll stop there, take a step back and leave with this quote :)

Be the change you want to see in the world ~ Mahatma Ghandi